Then she took off her panties and handed them to me. I tossed
them on the bed and got undressed.
I felt a breath of
estrangement in the room and thought she might be a voyeur of her own
experience, living at an angle to the moment and recording in some state of
future-mind. But then she pulled me down, snatched a fistful of hair and pulled
me into a kiss, and there was a heat in her, a hungry pulse that resembled a
gust of being. We were patched together
grappling and straining, not enough hands to grab each other, not nearly
sufficient body to press upon the other, we wanted more hold and grip, a sort
of mapped contact, bodies matching point for point, and I raised up and saw how
small she looked, naked and abed, how completely different from the woman of
the movietone aura in the hotel lobby.
She was near to real earth now, the sex-grubbed dug-up self, and I felt
close to her and thought I knew her even as she shut her eyes to hide herself.
I said her name.
We were hollowed out like scooped guava when it was
over. Our limbs ached and I had a
desert thirst and we’d killed the morning off.
I went and peed and watched the fluid splash amber in the sun-washed
bowl. What well-being in a barefoot
piss after a strenuous and proper screw…
Don DeLillo: Underworld,
Picador, Pg. 300.